Bb还记得我们曾有过天使与花花公子的谈话吗？bb说bb正在等一个让你回头的天使。bb说你曾经相信爱情，但它给你的伤害实在太深了。bb深信真正的天使是不会感到疲累，也不会离开那个她应该照顾与爱护的他。她甚至会牺牲自己去保护和让他回头。她会在全世界都抛弃你的时候关心你。我记得我当时是如何敬佩bb的这个信念。
当bb说天使是不会离开那个她应该照顾的人。我觉得bb更像是我的天使。好几次，bb都想结束我俩的关系。 可是，每次，bb都会支持我。当我低落的时候，当我需要一个人的时候。三个月，我尝尽方法忘记，但我失败了。三个月，bb尝试将我推开，但那一句＂bb, 你可好？＂却将你带回我身边。
在那天使与花花公子的谈话中，bb有好几次机会告诉我，你已另有他人， 但你没有这么做。那就是我问你那问题的原因。我还记得我同性恋的朋友问我，会不会珍惜这美好爱情回忆时， 我回他说，如果我晓得这段爱将带给我比我们在一起的日子更长的话，那我情愿我俩没相识过。没有bb的那段日子，我问老天爷，如果注定要从我手中拿走爱，那为何要给我爱这份礼呢？我当时真希望世上有帮人删除记忆的服务。
bb说起初bb是想与我上床，但在见到我之后，bb下不了手。bb可能不信，那天晚上，我可以感到bb要保护我的意念。bb想跟我保持一段距离，想把对我的伤害减到最低。可bb又不想离我太远。
bb懂吗，我很嫉妒她。非常嫉妒。bb每晚会回到她身边。她为bb生了两个孩子。她每天晚上可以睡在bb的身边，听着bb那沉稳的呼吸声，感觉到bb的体温。而我，只有bb的简讯还有与bb的初吻的回忆。
bb, bb still remember the angel player conversation that we had?? Bb said that you are waiting for that one angel who will turn you around and start a new leaf. Bb also said that you used to believe in love once, & it hurt, it hurt bad... Bb has this conviction of a real angel will never get tired or leave the one she was assign to take care of & will love him with all she had. She will sacrifice herself to protect or to turn over the beast into a new leaf and prove that. There is still someone who care to care about you even though the world has turn their back on you. & I remembered how I admire bb's conviction on this angel that was going to be sent to you.
When bb said the angel will not leave the one that she was assign to take care of. I felt that bb fit the role of my angel instead of the other day round. Bb wanted to leave, wanted to end our relationship couple of times. Yet, time & again, bb was always there for me. To bring me up when I feel down, to be there for me when I need someone. For 3 months, I tried to stay away then failed at my attempts. For 3 months, bb tried pushing me away then suddenly showered me with his care by asking me "Are you okay, bb?"
There were multiple times bb has the opportunity to tell me that bb already with someone, but bb didn't. That's the reason I asked bb the question which I asked. I remembered my gay friend once asked me, whether I will tell myself that I will forever treasure this memories of amazing love with bb, & i told him that if I knew this is going to bring me period of pain longer than the time we were together, then I rather we have not met before. During those times when I was suffering from the lost of bb, I asked God, why gave me the gift of love then to take it away from me. I wished that there are services in this world that could help me erase those memories of me & bb.
Bb said bb's initial intention was to bed me initially. When we met, something happened inside bb, the intention changed & bb just can't bear to hurt me. Maybe bb won't believe it, on the night that we first met, I can feel bb protective over me. Bb was trying to keep a distance from me, so as to reduce the damage as much as possible. Yet at the same time bb feel the attraction, & wanted to be as close to me as possible.
Bb, does bb know that I am jealous of her?? Extremely jealous of her.. Cos she has bb to go back to her every night. She has 2 children of bb. She can sleep beside bb every night, hear bb's deep & steady breathing & feel bb's body warmth next to her. The only thing I have of bb was bb's text & the memories of our first kiss...
当bb说天使是不会离开那个她应该照顾的人。我觉得bb更像是我的天使。好几次，bb都想结束我俩的关系。 可是，每次，bb都会支持我。当我低落的时候，当我需要一个人的时候。三个月，我尝尽方法忘记，但我失败了。三个月，bb尝试将我推开，但那一句＂bb, 你可好？＂却将你带回我身边。
在那天使与花花公子的谈话中，bb有好几次机会告诉我，你已另有他人， 但你没有这么做。那就是我问你那问题的原因。我还记得我同性恋的朋友问我，会不会珍惜这美好爱情回忆时， 我回他说，如果我晓得这段爱将带给我比我们在一起的日子更长的话，那我情愿我俩没相识过。没有bb的那段日子，我问老天爷，如果注定要从我手中拿走爱，那为何要给我爱这份礼呢？我当时真希望世上有帮人删除记忆的服务。
bb说起初bb是想与我上床，但在见到我之后，bb下不了手。bb可能不信，那天晚上，我可以感到bb要保护我的意念。bb想跟我保持一段距离，想把对我的伤害减到最低。可bb又不想离我太远。
bb懂吗，我很嫉妒她。非常嫉妒。bb每晚会回到她身边。她为bb生了两个孩子。她每天晚上可以睡在bb的身边，听着bb那沉稳的呼吸声，感觉到bb的体温。而我，只有bb的简讯还有与bb的初吻的回忆。
bb, bb still remember the angel player conversation that we had?? Bb said that you are waiting for that one angel who will turn you around and start a new leaf. Bb also said that you used to believe in love once, & it hurt, it hurt bad... Bb has this conviction of a real angel will never get tired or leave the one she was assign to take care of & will love him with all she had. She will sacrifice herself to protect or to turn over the beast into a new leaf and prove that. There is still someone who care to care about you even though the world has turn their back on you. & I remembered how I admire bb's conviction on this angel that was going to be sent to you.
When bb said the angel will not leave the one that she was assign to take care of. I felt that bb fit the role of my angel instead of the other day round. Bb wanted to leave, wanted to end our relationship couple of times. Yet, time & again, bb was always there for me. To bring me up when I feel down, to be there for me when I need someone. For 3 months, I tried to stay away then failed at my attempts. For 3 months, bb tried pushing me away then suddenly showered me with his care by asking me "Are you okay, bb?"
There were multiple times bb has the opportunity to tell me that bb already with someone, but bb didn't. That's the reason I asked bb the question which I asked. I remembered my gay friend once asked me, whether I will tell myself that I will forever treasure this memories of amazing love with bb, & i told him that if I knew this is going to bring me period of pain longer than the time we were together, then I rather we have not met before. During those times when I was suffering from the lost of bb, I asked God, why gave me the gift of love then to take it away from me. I wished that there are services in this world that could help me erase those memories of me & bb.
Bb said bb's initial intention was to bed me initially. When we met, something happened inside bb, the intention changed & bb just can't bear to hurt me. Maybe bb won't believe it, on the night that we first met, I can feel bb protective over me. Bb was trying to keep a distance from me, so as to reduce the damage as much as possible. Yet at the same time bb feel the attraction, & wanted to be as close to me as possible.
Bb, does bb know that I am jealous of her?? Extremely jealous of her.. Cos she has bb to go back to her every night. She has 2 children of bb. She can sleep beside bb every night, hear bb's deep & steady breathing & feel bb's body warmth next to her. The only thing I have of bb was bb's text & the memories of our first kiss...
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