不知为何，总在周末以后特别想你。昨天，一有空隙，bb 的脸孔就会浮现在我脑海。想念你以前早上传简讯给我，祝我早安。想念每天以期待的心情去睡觉，等候bb的早安。想念bb以前偶尔的早上的惊喜。我知道，我如果要求的话，bb一定答应， 然后每天会祝我早安。可我也知道，再这样下去，我俩会陷得更深。
回想起星期六向bb提出的疑问， 问bb为何会爱上我，这种情况不是应该能免则免的吗？感觉到这问题为bb所带来的困惑， 心觉内疚，也心疼bb。我只是想了解，到底我为了bb做了什么，让bb是爱上了我。bb可说不出，只说爱是悄悄的由心升起，当bb察觉的时候，bb已经爱上了我。
昨夜，因豪雨而惊醒。临回睡前的念头是，人生苦短，好想可以放下一切，放弃一切，什么都不理，去追求与bb的爱情。不管世人会是以如何的眼光看我，只懂得，有bb在身边，我什么都可以熬得过来。可我要的身边，是一个bb可以待在我身边的家，一个我俩互相扶持的未来。
今晚，参加了朋友的婚宴。他们播放了合照，心里一阵抽痛。从来未有这样的感觉。因为脑海里浮出的是我与bb的合照。表面是祝福对新人，心里是为我们那失去的未来而哭泣。朋友在婚宴上说了一席话。他说：＂本来以为可以让他老婆嫁给他，算是成功了。现在觉得，唯有在可以给予老婆一个幸福家庭，才算真正的成功。＂整个婚宴上，看到那对新人，就仿佛看见我俩，面带着幸福的笑容，一起踏着那红地毯，步入我俩人生的另一阶段。
我已经很努力，叫自己把bb放下。原以为已经可以放开了。可是往往有时候，不经意，有关于与bb的一切，总在我不留意的时候，入侵我脑海。原以为，眼泪已流干，有时候，不知不觉，发现脸颊是湿的。bb, 我该怎么办？
I don't know why, I always missed you the most after weekend. Yesterday, whenever there is a chance, bb's face will appear in my mind. Missed the daily good morning text from you. Missed the feeling of going to bed, looking forward to receiving bb's text in the morning. Missing the occasional morning surprised from you. I know, if I were to plead, bb will give in to me, wishing me good morning everyday. I also know, if we were to continue, we will sink deeper into this.
Last night, woken up by the midnight heavy rain. A thought occured to me just before I fallen asleep is, life is short, I wish I can let go of everything, morals, values, & pursue the love & life with bb. I don't care how others will see me, knowing that as long as I have bb beside me, I will be able to overcome everything. What I want is to be able to have a future with bb that we will support each other, the home that bb will be there to build with me.
Tonight, attended a friend's wedding dinner. They played video of the photographs they took together, & I felt stabs of pain in my heart, & I have not experienced heartache in such occasion before. Then I realized the ache is caused by images of the photographs me & bb take together. On surface, I was happy for the newly wed, deep inside, I am crying for the future that we lost. Groom said this in his speech " I thought that I have succeeded when I can made my wife married me. Now, only I realized, the only way to show that I have succeeded is to provide a blissful family for my wife." . Throughout the whole dinner, looking at the newlywed, is like looking at us, looking so happy together, holding hand, taking our steps into another stage of our lives.
I have tried very hard, telling myself to let bb go. I thought that I was able to at times. Somehow, there are still unexpected occasion, thought of you still on my mind. I thought, my tears have dried. Sometimes, without realizing, my cheeks are wet. Bb, what should I do?
回想起星期六向bb提出的疑问， 问bb为何会爱上我，这种情况不是应该能免则免的吗？感觉到这问题为bb所带来的困惑， 心觉内疚，也心疼bb。我只是想了解，到底我为了bb做了什么，让bb是爱上了我。bb可说不出，只说爱是悄悄的由心升起，当bb察觉的时候，bb已经爱上了我。
昨夜，因豪雨而惊醒。临回睡前的念头是，人生苦短，好想可以放下一切，放弃一切，什么都不理，去追求与bb的爱情。不管世人会是以如何的眼光看我，只懂得，有bb在身边，我什么都可以熬得过来。可我要的身边，是一个bb可以待在我身边的家，一个我俩互相扶持的未来。
今晚，参加了朋友的婚宴。他们播放了合照，心里一阵抽痛。从来未有这样的感觉。因为脑海里浮出的是我与bb的合照。表面是祝福对新人，心里是为我们那失去的未来而哭泣。朋友在婚宴上说了一席话。他说：＂本来以为可以让他老婆嫁给他，算是成功了。现在觉得，唯有在可以给予老婆一个幸福家庭，才算真正的成功。＂整个婚宴上，看到那对新人，就仿佛看见我俩，面带着幸福的笑容，一起踏着那红地毯，步入我俩人生的另一阶段。
我已经很努力，叫自己把bb放下。原以为已经可以放开了。可是往往有时候，不经意，有关于与bb的一切，总在我不留意的时候，入侵我脑海。原以为，眼泪已流干，有时候，不知不觉，发现脸颊是湿的。bb, 我该怎么办？
I don't know why, I always missed you the most after weekend. Yesterday, whenever there is a chance, bb's face will appear in my mind. Missed the daily good morning text from you. Missed the feeling of going to bed, looking forward to receiving bb's text in the morning. Missing the occasional morning surprised from you. I know, if I were to plead, bb will give in to me, wishing me good morning everyday. I also know, if we were to continue, we will sink deeper into this.
Last night, woken up by the midnight heavy rain. A thought occured to me just before I fallen asleep is, life is short, I wish I can let go of everything, morals, values, & pursue the love & life with bb. I don't care how others will see me, knowing that as long as I have bb beside me, I will be able to overcome everything. What I want is to be able to have a future with bb that we will support each other, the home that bb will be there to build with me.
Tonight, attended a friend's wedding dinner. They played video of the photographs they took together, & I felt stabs of pain in my heart, & I have not experienced heartache in such occasion before. Then I realized the ache is caused by images of the photographs me & bb take together. On surface, I was happy for the newly wed, deep inside, I am crying for the future that we lost. Groom said this in his speech " I thought that I have succeeded when I can made my wife married me. Now, only I realized, the only way to show that I have succeeded is to provide a blissful family for my wife." . Throughout the whole dinner, looking at the newlywed, is like looking at us, looking so happy together, holding hand, taking our steps into another stage of our lives.
I have tried very hard, telling myself to let bb go. I thought that I was able to at times. Somehow, there are still unexpected occasion, thought of you still on my mind. I thought, my tears have dried. Sometimes, without realizing, my cheeks are wet. Bb, what should I do?
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