分手后的三个月又十四天，又想起了你，眼泪不听话又滚下了脸颊。很想发给你一个简讯，要求最后一次见面，然后依偎在你的胸膛，把那些委屈，痛楚全都哭出来。让你揽着我，吻着我额头，告诉我＂bb，别哭了。＂。 唯一的顾虑是我不肯定那会是我要求见面的最后一次。我怕那次之后我会要求再见面，而你会依我。
就在上个周末，去了朋友家的游泳池， 看见了一对对的伴侣，带着他们的孩子在水中嬉戏。想到了你，想到了我们可能有的孩子，想到了我们可能有的家庭，想到那些可能的快乐时光，心就痛，眼泪就在眼眶打滚。因为在泳池里，我也分不清哪些是泪水，哪些是泳池的水。侥幸的是，你也有幻想过我们可能的未来， 我们可能的家庭，我们可能的孩子。因为你告诉我， 假若我们有我们的爱情结晶，他\她将是我的宝贝。bb, 你与孩子都会是我的宝贝。
bb, 无论我多么努力， 我还是无法放下你。你说，多希望你可以是个浑蛋，把我留在你身边。我又怎能允许你这么做呢？我若让你这样做，只会为你增添更多的烦恼，让你的身心更疲累，我会心疼我的bb。因为我要的未来，是与你有个家，每天可以在家等你回来的家，你每天心里挂念的家，为了我们的家到外打拼的家。因为不知不觉中，你已在我心中建立一个家，住了进去。
有时候，多希望我可以恨你。可每当想起你，心里浮现的还是你那温情的眼神，对你还是满满的爱意。认识我的人， 都知我不是一个拖泥带水的人。那夺走我贞操的前男友，我说放下，果真一个月就放下了。我人生的宗旨是，只要是已婚的男人，避！偏偏，心中放不下，至今还是你。
bb, 你可知道，你是我的定心丸。每当想到往后的日子没有你，我心里就慌。我之所以开始了这个部落格，是希望我每当思念你的时候，可以把我的思念，一一化为文字，透过这个部落格，抒于此。
3 months & 14 days after we broke up, thought of you again, that gotten my tears to flow again. Wanted to send you a message, asking for one last meet up, then I will lean in your embrace, crying out all my grievances, all the hurt. Letting you hug me, kissing me at my forehead & telling me "hush, bb, it's okay now.". The only thing which stopped me was that I wasn't sure it was the last time that I want to see you. I am afraid that I will make more such request to meet bb, & bb will give in to me.
Last weekend, went my friend's place for a swim. Saw families with kids, playing in the pool. Thought of you, thought of the kids we might have, thought of the family we might have, thought of all those great time we might have, heart started to ache, tears started to flow. Because I was in the pool, I couldn't differentiate which are my tears & which are waters. What I was glad for was, bb has also thought about our future, the family & the kids that we might have, because bb told me that, if we were to have our kid, he/she will be my precious forever. Bb, the child & you both going to be my precious.
Bb, no matter how hard I tried, I just don't seem to be able to let you go. Bb said, you hope that you can be a bastard & keep me with you. How can I ever allow you to do so? By letting you do such, I am just going to increase the burden that bb already has, making bb more tired physically & emotionally, & I will be heart pain seeing bb so. The future that I want with bb, is to have a family with bb, a home where bb will come back to every night, a home that you constantly think about, a home that you will go out there to conquer for. Because unknowingly, bb has built a home in my heart & resides there.
Sometimes, I wish that I can hate you. Whenever I think of you, it's still bb's face that's full of love that showed up, I am still in love with you. My friends who know me, know that I am a decisive person. That ex whom I given my first night to, when I said let go, within a month I had let him go. My principal in life is, never to touch a married man.. But, somehow somewhat, till date, bb still occupy a special space in my heart.
Bb, do you know that you are the pillar in my life. Whenever I thought about the future without you, I will panic. The reason that I started this blog, is so that whenever I missed you, I can turn it into words & channel it through this blog.
就在上个周末，去了朋友家的游泳池， 看见了一对对的伴侣，带着他们的孩子在水中嬉戏。想到了你，想到了我们可能有的孩子，想到了我们可能有的家庭，想到那些可能的快乐时光，心就痛，眼泪就在眼眶打滚。因为在泳池里，我也分不清哪些是泪水，哪些是泳池的水。侥幸的是，你也有幻想过我们可能的未来， 我们可能的家庭，我们可能的孩子。因为你告诉我， 假若我们有我们的爱情结晶，他\她将是我的宝贝。bb, 你与孩子都会是我的宝贝。
bb, 无论我多么努力， 我还是无法放下你。你说，多希望你可以是个浑蛋，把我留在你身边。我又怎能允许你这么做呢？我若让你这样做，只会为你增添更多的烦恼，让你的身心更疲累，我会心疼我的bb。因为我要的未来，是与你有个家，每天可以在家等你回来的家，你每天心里挂念的家，为了我们的家到外打拼的家。因为不知不觉中，你已在我心中建立一个家，住了进去。
有时候，多希望我可以恨你。可每当想起你，心里浮现的还是你那温情的眼神，对你还是满满的爱意。认识我的人， 都知我不是一个拖泥带水的人。那夺走我贞操的前男友，我说放下，果真一个月就放下了。我人生的宗旨是，只要是已婚的男人，避！偏偏，心中放不下，至今还是你。
bb, 你可知道，你是我的定心丸。每当想到往后的日子没有你，我心里就慌。我之所以开始了这个部落格，是希望我每当思念你的时候，可以把我的思念，一一化为文字，透过这个部落格，抒于此。
3 months & 14 days after we broke up, thought of you again, that gotten my tears to flow again. Wanted to send you a message, asking for one last meet up, then I will lean in your embrace, crying out all my grievances, all the hurt. Letting you hug me, kissing me at my forehead & telling me "hush, bb, it's okay now.". The only thing which stopped me was that I wasn't sure it was the last time that I want to see you. I am afraid that I will make more such request to meet bb, & bb will give in to me.
Last weekend, went my friend's place for a swim. Saw families with kids, playing in the pool. Thought of you, thought of the kids we might have, thought of the family we might have, thought of all those great time we might have, heart started to ache, tears started to flow. Because I was in the pool, I couldn't differentiate which are my tears & which are waters. What I was glad for was, bb has also thought about our future, the family & the kids that we might have, because bb told me that, if we were to have our kid, he/she will be my precious forever. Bb, the child & you both going to be my precious.
Bb, no matter how hard I tried, I just don't seem to be able to let you go. Bb said, you hope that you can be a bastard & keep me with you. How can I ever allow you to do so? By letting you do such, I am just going to increase the burden that bb already has, making bb more tired physically & emotionally, & I will be heart pain seeing bb so. The future that I want with bb, is to have a family with bb, a home where bb will come back to every night, a home that you constantly think about, a home that you will go out there to conquer for. Because unknowingly, bb has built a home in my heart & resides there.
Sometimes, I wish that I can hate you. Whenever I think of you, it's still bb's face that's full of love that showed up, I am still in love with you. My friends who know me, know that I am a decisive person. That ex whom I given my first night to, when I said let go, within a month I had let him go. My principal in life is, never to touch a married man.. But, somehow somewhat, till date, bb still occupy a special space in my heart.
Bb, do you know that you are the pillar in my life. Whenever I thought about the future without you, I will panic. The reason that I started this blog, is so that whenever I missed you, I can turn it into words & channel it through this blog.
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