今晚，我又哭了。自从上个礼拜生病后，脑海不时想起你。近期，对你的思念，越来越浓。读了一篇题名为＂分手后的路，请各自走完＂， 眼泪就不听话流了下来。文章说， 如果一对恋人（夫妻）分手后仍然能做朋友， 要么则不曾相爱过，要么其中一人仍然很爱另一个。想起了我俩分手后，你对我的要求， bb说 bb 希望能够在我生命中，做为一个朋友，在我需要的时候支持我。
我深知分手后更本没有朋友这一回事。我知道这是bb还想能够留在我生命里的借口。我不知道bb不肯离开她的原因。我还记得bb曾说，因为没有性，我俩就能成为真正的朋友。可是bb还是称呼我bb。 因为朋友是不会互相称呼彼此bb的。
最近在网上认识一个， 把他当成弟弟的人。我知道他其实喜欢我，我也知道在你之后，我没信心，也没那能力再爱。所以他每次暗示一些东西，我要嘛就咋不懂， 要嘛就告诉他不可能， 我不想伤害他。终于明白当时bb 的感受。终于明白当时为何bb会把我推开。我俩唯一不同的是， 我知道，无论如何，＂我想你＂和＂我爱你＂是万万不可对他说出口。因为如果我这么做，就会害了他。对他是没有爱的真心，只有寂寞，打发时间，朋友的念头。
到今日，我还在想，老天让我俩认识到相爱的真意到底是什么呢？
Tonight, my tears flowed yet again. Since I was sick last week, thought of you always, & just miss you so much. Read an article titled 'please complete your own journey after break up', tears started to flow. It said, if a couple can still remain friends after break up/divorce, either they have not love each other before, else one of them still loves the other. I remembered after we ended out relationship, bb told me, that bb wished to be the friend who will be right behind me giving me the support I needed.
I knew deep inside, that there are no such thing as friends after break up. I know that it's an excuse bb still wanted to remain in my life. I don't know the reason bb not leaving her. Bb once said, it's precisely because there isn't sex involved, we can be real friends, & we both knew its just an excuse, cos bb still call me bb, & friends don't address each other as bb.
Recently met a guy online, whom I treat as didi. I know he likes me, & wanted something more. I am also aware that after you, I no longer has the confidence, nor the energy to love again. Every times he said something that hinted more, I either pretend I didn't get what he mean, or I will tell him that it will never happen, it can't happen, I don't wish to hurt him. I finally understood, why did bb attempted to push me away. The only difference is that, no matter what, "I miss you" and "I love you" can never be uttered out. Because I know, once that is out of my mouth, I will just cause him hurt. With him, no love, it's just that wanted a friend to talk to.
Till date, I still ask myself, what's the reason that God let us met & fell in love?
我深知分手后更本没有朋友这一回事。我知道这是bb还想能够留在我生命里的借口。我不知道bb不肯离开她的原因。我还记得bb曾说，因为没有性，我俩就能成为真正的朋友。可是bb还是称呼我bb。 因为朋友是不会互相称呼彼此bb的。
最近在网上认识一个， 把他当成弟弟的人。我知道他其实喜欢我，我也知道在你之后，我没信心，也没那能力再爱。所以他每次暗示一些东西，我要嘛就咋不懂， 要嘛就告诉他不可能， 我不想伤害他。终于明白当时bb 的感受。终于明白当时为何bb会把我推开。我俩唯一不同的是， 我知道，无论如何，＂我想你＂和＂我爱你＂是万万不可对他说出口。因为如果我这么做，就会害了他。对他是没有爱的真心，只有寂寞，打发时间，朋友的念头。
到今日，我还在想，老天让我俩认识到相爱的真意到底是什么呢？
Tonight, my tears flowed yet again. Since I was sick last week, thought of you always, & just miss you so much. Read an article titled 'please complete your own journey after break up', tears started to flow. It said, if a couple can still remain friends after break up/divorce, either they have not love each other before, else one of them still loves the other. I remembered after we ended out relationship, bb told me, that bb wished to be the friend who will be right behind me giving me the support I needed.
I knew deep inside, that there are no such thing as friends after break up. I know that it's an excuse bb still wanted to remain in my life. I don't know the reason bb not leaving her. Bb once said, it's precisely because there isn't sex involved, we can be real friends, & we both knew its just an excuse, cos bb still call me bb, & friends don't address each other as bb.
Recently met a guy online, whom I treat as didi. I know he likes me, & wanted something more. I am also aware that after you, I no longer has the confidence, nor the energy to love again. Every times he said something that hinted more, I either pretend I didn't get what he mean, or I will tell him that it will never happen, it can't happen, I don't wish to hurt him. I finally understood, why did bb attempted to push me away. The only difference is that, no matter what, "I miss you" and "I love you" can never be uttered out. Because I know, once that is out of my mouth, I will just cause him hurt. With him, no love, it's just that wanted a friend to talk to.
Till date, I still ask myself, what's the reason that God let us met & fell in love?
