Friday, 25 October 2013

关怀Care

Bb可知道,有时候, bb的一个关怀,可以令我感动到流泪。前天晚上,疑是食物中毒, 上吐下泻,整身虚弱。昨天见了医生后发了bb一则简讯,就收到了bb一连串的问题,然后bb提醒我要喝多点水,那时候bb真像我爸。 今天, bb飞香港公干,往机场途中不忘发我一则简讯, 要我好好照顾自己, 直到你回来。早上醒来后,惊觉bb乃在星加坡, bb无奈说因同事而耽误了行程。

Bb说, bb感觉到我的疲累。bb可知道这一句话的影响力有多大?一看到这句话,眼泪就夺眶而出。因为这是bb对我关怀的表现。 bb可知道,我这阵子都让自己很繁忙,就为了不让自己有多余的时间,去思念bb,压郁自己,不去联络bb。bb说,bb内疚。bb不需内疚,我因我还爱着bb,又无法与bb在一起,我得找东西来移转我的注意力。

Bb知道吗,当bb说bb不懂为何老天爷, 让我一个这么好的女孩经历如此的考验时,bb又何尝不是和我一样, 经历着这个考验。好想可以在机场陪bb聊天,聊到bb登机为止。bb说bb已进入关卡。我就捉弄bb从出境出来,待会再由入境口入境,bb说应该不行吧,bb再说真的不懂可以从出境处出来。我就告诉bb说,其实听到bb有再三的考虑这个可能性,我就很欣慰,因为bb想见我的程度,就如我想见bb一样。

临飞前,收到了bb给我的自照,很惊讶,也很开心。不敢一样回复bb, 因为没上妆,加上现在人有点虚弱。我每一次都想将我最好的一面献给bb。bb,真希望情景可以不一样,真想好好跟你谈一场永不分手的恋爱。

Does bb know, sometimes, just a word of care from bb, is sufficient to bring tears to my eyes. Night before last, I was puking & diarrhea from suspected food poisoning, & was feeling so weak from it. After consult a doctor yesterday, sent bb a text, bb replied with so many questions & reminded me to drink more water. At that point of time, bb sounded just like my dad. This morning, bb sent me a text on your way to airport, asking me to take care of myself & be safe till you are back. Hours later, woke up & realized bb still in Sg, then bb told me bb missed the flight because of your colleagues.

Bb said, bb can feel the tiredness in me. Do you know the effect of this line of words have on me? Once I saw this text, tears started to flow, cos this is bb's way if showing bb cares for me. Does bb know, I kept myself busy these while, so that I do not have any time, to miss bb, & to hold myself back, from texting bb. Bb said, bb felt guilty. Bb don't need to be guilty, I still love bb, & I am not able to be with bb, so I need to create distraction in my life.

Does bb realized, when bb said, bb don't know why, why does God let a lovely girl like to to suffer all these by myself, that bb also going through the same test as me? I really wished that I could be beside bb at the airport, accompany bb & talk to bb until b board your flight. Bb said that you have checked in. So I disturbed bb said why not exit through the arrival hall then enter the departure hall. Bb said don't think can ba, then bb said really don't know whether can exit the arrival hall. Bb, just by you considering this possibility, it's good enough for me, cos it shows that, bb wants to see me as much as I want to see bb.

Preflight, bb sent me a picture of yourself, it made my day. I didn't dare to reciprocate, first, cos I didn't have make up on me. Second, I am still recovering from my food poisoning. I wanted to give bb the best. Bb, I really wish that things can be different with bb, to go into a "never-to-break-up" relationship with bb. 

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