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其实，开始这部落格的念头是从这＂非常完美＂短片的灵感。被感动的时候， 是在女主角告白的时间。见到了她的勇气，见证了她为爱情的牺牲、付出，看见了她追求那属于她的爱情，然后想起我俩，恨自己没她的勇气，争取自己的爱情。当时，见证她勇于告白后，很想问你，"我想嫁给你，你敢吗？＂然后看你会有什么样的反应。开心？苦恼？挣扎？痛苦？
至今，有时读到一些文章，关于爱情，关于夫妻之道，脑海里还是你的名字，你的脸孔。然后我会感到很失落。这几天我在驾车时都心不在焉。 脑海里时不时浮现你的脸孔，你对我说的一些话，你对我的关怀。 我知道我不可以再联络你，因为那只会带给我更多的痛苦。
你也知道，这些日子，我都把时间安排得满满的，搞得自己很累，回到家倒头就睡。就是避免我有多余的时间想你，然后难过。前晚，女友问我，为何把时间安排得这么满，我到底在逃避些什么？她提到逃避，我才发觉，我真的是在逃避，不想面对摆在面前的现实。不想面对那曾经爱得最深却也伤我最深的人。不想面对那曾给我一个世界却又从我手中夺走的人。
我还记得我给你的承诺，但我现在只想对自己不负责任。就像你自己所说，只要不杀人放火，就随心所欲做自己想做的事。
The idea of starting this blog came after I watched this video. When the girl made her confession, it touches me deeply. Admired her courage, the sacrifice she made, the certainty he was the one for her, chasing for her love of her life, thought about us. Hate myself for not having the same kind of courage she has, to fight for my love. When I saw her courageous confession, I was tempted to ask you the same question," I want to marry you, will you dare to say yes?" & observe the kind of reactions you have. Will you be happy? Troubled? Struggle? In pain?
Till date, sometimes I came across articles, talking about love, about relationship, it's still you who came to my mind. Then I will feel down. I have not really been paying attention when I am driving these couple of days. Your face still came to my mind, your words, your care. I know I can't contact you anymore, cos I will just create more pain for myself.
You do know that recently I kept myself very busy, to make myself so tired that when I got home, I got no time nor energy to miss you, and then feel sad and moody about it. 2 nights ago, a girlfriend asked me why did I arrange my schedule till so packed, what was I running away from? When she mentioned the word running away, then it dawned on me that, I am running away. Running away from the facts glaring in front of my face, running away from the man I once love deep & hurt me the most. Running away from the man who gave me a world then took away from me.
I remembered the promise you made me do, just that for now I just want to not be responsible for myself. Just that you once told me, as long as no killing, no causing of bodily harm, just want to do what I feel like doing for now.
其实，开始这部落格的念头是从这＂非常完美＂短片的灵感。被感动的时候， 是在女主角告白的时间。见到了她的勇气，见证了她为爱情的牺牲、付出，看见了她追求那属于她的爱情，然后想起我俩，恨自己没她的勇气，争取自己的爱情。当时，见证她勇于告白后，很想问你，"我想嫁给你，你敢吗？＂然后看你会有什么样的反应。开心？苦恼？挣扎？痛苦？
至今，有时读到一些文章，关于爱情，关于夫妻之道，脑海里还是你的名字，你的脸孔。然后我会感到很失落。这几天我在驾车时都心不在焉。 脑海里时不时浮现你的脸孔，你对我说的一些话，你对我的关怀。 我知道我不可以再联络你，因为那只会带给我更多的痛苦。
你也知道，这些日子，我都把时间安排得满满的，搞得自己很累，回到家倒头就睡。就是避免我有多余的时间想你，然后难过。前晚，女友问我，为何把时间安排得这么满，我到底在逃避些什么？她提到逃避，我才发觉，我真的是在逃避，不想面对摆在面前的现实。不想面对那曾经爱得最深却也伤我最深的人。不想面对那曾给我一个世界却又从我手中夺走的人。
我还记得我给你的承诺，但我现在只想对自己不负责任。就像你自己所说，只要不杀人放火，就随心所欲做自己想做的事。
The idea of starting this blog came after I watched this video. When the girl made her confession, it touches me deeply. Admired her courage, the sacrifice she made, the certainty he was the one for her, chasing for her love of her life, thought about us. Hate myself for not having the same kind of courage she has, to fight for my love. When I saw her courageous confession, I was tempted to ask you the same question," I want to marry you, will you dare to say yes?" & observe the kind of reactions you have. Will you be happy? Troubled? Struggle? In pain?
Till date, sometimes I came across articles, talking about love, about relationship, it's still you who came to my mind. Then I will feel down. I have not really been paying attention when I am driving these couple of days. Your face still came to my mind, your words, your care. I know I can't contact you anymore, cos I will just create more pain for myself.
You do know that recently I kept myself very busy, to make myself so tired that when I got home, I got no time nor energy to miss you, and then feel sad and moody about it. 2 nights ago, a girlfriend asked me why did I arrange my schedule till so packed, what was I running away from? When she mentioned the word running away, then it dawned on me that, I am running away. Running away from the facts glaring in front of my face, running away from the man I once love deep & hurt me the most. Running away from the man who gave me a world then took away from me.
I remembered the promise you made me do, just that for now I just want to not be responsible for myself. Just that you once told me, as long as no killing, no causing of bodily harm, just want to do what I feel like doing for now.
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